I see through...
Memories of long, long ago.
The laptop on your twin bed,
trying to fit yourself within the frames of the video.
Your goofy smile, I knew you’re about to do something... naughty.
You missed me, I could see it in your eyes.
The dances, the teases, the fun.
Oh how cruel life could be sometimes.
Those lonely roads
that seemed to lead to no where.
Acres and acres of farmland on both sides.
It’s extremely dark and foggy.
Imaginations of a wild deer
jumping out of nowhere kept flashing through.
Insects, storming the bright glow of the headlamps.
Meeting their unfortunate demise.
Glue to the windscreen,
visibility became poorer and poorer.
But the thought of the smile on your face kept me going.
I knew you’d love it,
that hoarse undertone in your voice,
Oh how twisted are the workings of...
Who do we blame?
For knowing but terribly scared to let go.
For feeling deeply but lying...
The deep sighs,
the heavy weight that haunted my dreams.
Time and times again,
Felt like living in a loop.
It’s perfect, the possibilities are amazing.
The peace, the joy... The mad fun.
The support, the excitement,
the cheers... that you invested in celebrating my moments!
The energy, like you’d climb a mountain to show me.
How you look at me...
You’re strong!
But you handle me with care.
You’ve been through a lot
I see the guards, the walls…
but you made a door just for me.
The longing eyes, of…
hoping I’d let you in...
But the meaning of those letters consistently haunted me.
The holding of hands in a loud place.
Long plastic, held up high..
It didn’t work the first time
so the loud music continues.
There was no knob to turn it down
Only you could, trust me, I tried.
Was I a coward?
Too scared to face you with what you wanted,
what you needed?
Or were you bent on having it your way?
Leaving me no space to breathe?
So, I cracked a window!
